Recently in 100 Day Raw Challenge Category

I'm clearly not drinking enough water to flush out any toxins that might be released (I *know* this -- don't ask how) and it's likely I'm not eating enough calories.

Watching Bunny's video from when she was between challenges really made sense to me. I'm only feeling barely "hungry" like twice daily! And yesterday when I did feel peckish I ate too many pine nuts with oil and balsamic vinegar (not raw!) and made myself feel sick. Then, because of that sick heavy feeling, B made me another smoothie (we always have a green one for breakfast) of just fruit. Then, around 10pm, I ate some strawberries! No wonder my body is holding on to EVERYTHING. It's getting no fuel!

I was reading a really good raw blog last night and some posts were food diaries. The blogger is eating 811 and she ate SO MUCH FRUIT every day! Like 8 small mangos or 8 bananas at a time?!? I usually eat 1 banana and feel like "ah."

But I want to add some physical activities to my day, it's part of my 10 day mini challenge goals. So, I have to eat more. The other day I found out that eating large meals is right out for me. So, I have to eat smaller more frequent meals, which is what I was doing before we started this crazy raw stuff! So, the benefit of not feeling hungry much (not having to think about food or constantly plan or clean up) is moot because I have to eat ALL THE TIME.

WHATEVER.

Raw Fu is a private social network for people wanting to take the 100 Day Raw Challenge. The challenge starts tomorrow, so the deadline to sign up was midnight EDT tonight.

The person who started it thought it would maybe attract 20 people? 50? ONE THOUSAND PEOPLE have signed up. That is amazing. It may seem like a small number for the interwebs, but it's a big number to me because it's 998 other people who are trying this paradigm shift in their own lives. People who will understand what I'm going through when I share it, and people who I can try to support through what they're going through.

Of course we may not all be transformed, some of us will fail some days and some may quit. But as cliched as it is, a journey begins with a single step. And there's no shame in falling off the horse. We get up and dust ourselves off and start again, farther along than we were before. I'm really excited for everyone, and for myself!

Today is the last day before we start the challenge. I have downloaded my 100 day calendar and the workbook for the first 10 day challenge.

I'm struggling with the notion that I should somehow be "better" than I am. Prettier, thinner, more spiritual, more organized, more kind, more loving, more together, more artistic, more creative, more crafty, more thrifty, more joyful, more abundant, more SOMEONE ELSE. But I am me. And I am those things sometimes, and not other times.

And if I want to experience the true fruits of the spirit (which I think all those things are related to) I know that those aren't states I "earn" like a paycheck for all my half ass work. No. They are fruits...they are produced IN ME when I am rightthinking and healthy in my mind, heart, and spirit. They are the result of running the honest true open race.

Peace comes when I am not pulling back...because pulling back in any way (fear, shame, regret, guilt, anger, anxiety) causes a tension -- a pull in the opposite direction.

Boy am I ever grateful that we have the opportunity to do this now. This situation won't last forever, so I should make the most of it! I am grateful that I have been shown an easy and rewarding way to get healthy. I am grateful that I am not miserable in nearly every way like I was in Vegas. I am grateful for the ability to sit outside and take the air and the sunshine and just live. I am fortunate and blessed by my life. And I am grateful for every choice I made and experience I had to get here, because if they had been different, then this would be different. And I hope I would be grateful then, too.

Gal 5:22-23 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law.